Dissappointment

If only life is a remote control, I wanna rewind it back when its the EARLY this year or the month of June cuz theres holidays so that i'll work my ass off fkin blardy die die hard to achieve my goal of going to Higher Nitec/Sec 5 with 17 points.
And back when Im done sitting for ALL the N's papers what I did was I went to look through it and think hardly again And mthfk I finally realised that N was actually easy if I had started to put in more effort on the EARLY this year.
Its just that I slacked more and put in less effort.
But its no use crying over a spilt milk and now I have to blame myself for everything that I did.
So now I already know where I stand.
Life has to go on.

On the other hand I confessed to my parent and my brothers and asked whether are they mad if I can't proceed to H.Nitec/Sec 5 and I apologised cuz I think I'll end up in the ITE and they went, "Its okay, all of us already know and have seen you trying really hard especially during the 2 weeks before the exams and its alright to go a long journey as long as you STILL have the intention to further your studies then thats fine with us."
I had learn my school life lessons/mistakes and I should start to learn to feel appreciate that I still have a family like this. (: