Friends or foes?

After giving thought for quite sometime, I dont know whether I should feel guilty on these two people which I had an arguement for the past few weeks. Am I being myself? A girl and a guy. These two people got different ways of giving me their attitude. One of them was a schoolmate of mine. I know you guys have been trying hard to contact me back recently but I just went to ignored it. Surprisingly, this was the first time we had a big arguement or whatsoever it called till it lead us to strangers. I mean, not really strangers. I didnt expected this to happened too. Well, patience do have a limit on each every person. Easily said, you guys have been crossing my patience lines too many times. You people already know in the first place that I hate to fight nor making enemies. Since I had no choices left, I decided that I wanna let go this way. I just knew something 'new' about myself, lol go and figure. Talking about this schoolmate of mine, should I dont bother about him or what? I mean we had 1 final important year left to go. And precisely, for sure we are gonna bump onto each other everyday whenever in school. This girl made me realise something that she considered me an important good friend to her. I also dont know whether I wanna continue/start our friendship back again. Eventho you did apologised to me, somehow I can sense that your, 'Im very sorry' doesnt really meant it. This is not a matter of winning or losing. You guys made me lose trust on each of you, or maybe much more. And if you want me to continue this friendship thang, make me regain the love and trust back and start changing. Eh c'mon uh dian, why the f^ck did you become like this? Uh huh Im already f^cking tired of kept give in to people. Stop giving people chances and start being evil. o.O I think Imma stay that way. Like it or not, Idec. Just two words, very dissapointed. I just dont know what to do right now.
'Thanks' eh 'close friends'.